The Holidays

As usual since I have been at work... updating this blog is getting more and more difficult. A lot has been happening since I have lasst updated. Brynn has had another ear infection. She has another tooth. She had stood. Now she goes from sitting to standing on her own, without holding on to anything! (I will post video). She takes 4-5 steps at a time, too!

Sick. We all seem to be psasing it back and forth. Brynn had another ear infection a few weeks ago...and Dan got a nasty cold that he so generously passed on to me. I haven't felt this crummy in a long time, and am hoping Brynn doesn't get it.

We also have had a huge change, which is one reason it has been so long since I last updated. We have moved. We had a potential tenant walk through our house, she loved it, but needed to be in by December 15th! We didn't think we would be out before Christmas... so we had a tree and had decorated... and had about 9 days to be packed and moved out!! Talk about stressful! We somehow managed to do it, while working full time and chasing around an 11 month old. We are now all settled in at Dan's dads. I know in earlier posts I had mentioned moving in with my Grandma, but we decided that this is a much better option for us for now-- especially with an almost 1 year old. Grandma's house still has so much work, and there is so much for Brynn to get in to. All of my grandma's knitting baskets, plants, and nic-naks she has set up all over. Definitly not baby friendly. Not to mention the space... not a whole lot of room for all of us and our stuff. At Nick's, we have 1500 sq feet to fill up-- we are able to use all of our furniture, and our room and closet are like twice the size they were. We are pretty comfortable for now... and in a few months we will begin looking seriously for houses! :o)

Now Christmas! I took Brynn to see Santa at Macy's on Friday. She LOVED him. No tears, just a lot of intense looks. The line was long, but well worth the wait!

Our family is so blessed! We had good food, family time, and a great first Christmas for Brynnie Boo. She is near impossible to bring to church... she doesn't want to just be held. She wants to go, go, go. On Christmas Eve Dan and I took turns taking her out and letting her crawl around. She sure was a ball full of energy. Christmas Day she had so much fun with Dan's cousin Berit. She played with Brynn pretty much the whole day, which was nice for me to have a little break :) Dan's Aunt and Uncle live on White Bear Lake, so we also brought our skates over because the lake is like glass! It was so nice.

Dan had Monday, Tuesday, and today off of work, which has been nice to spend time together. We went to the Mall of America yesterday-- it was so crazy. Today we are just going to putz around here, do laundry, clean, and make spaghetti for dinner. I am going to try and enjoy the little bit of time left that I have home with Brynn before I head back to work. After New Year's, I am going to seriously really hit my capstone hard. I am all registered and want to be done by time next school year begins so I get a nice little bump in pay :)

Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you all! I will leave you with some video!

A lot of Change... And Stress!

Ok. I have not been the best with updating the blog. I had started a week ago, and stopped because I feel like all I had to say was so boring! It is officially December and we have snow on the ground (finally). I just finished up with the first trimester of school. Hard to believe! Ia m looking forward to the next because I get to teach astronomy and the kiddos LOVE it. I didn't get to teach it last year since I was on bed rest/ maternity leave... So I will be refreshed :)

Speaking of bed rest... December 10 was my last day of work last year and the day I was put on bed rest. One week into tri 2. Hard to believe! Hopefully we don't get a massive snow storm again next weekend like we did last. My shower was cancelled due to it... We are planning on moving out of our home next weekend so snow would not be good. Which means we have a renter! We are just waiting on the signing of the lease but it is pretty official! It is overwhelming and I have many mixed emotions about it. Going from living on our own to living with family. My grandmas house is just not going to be ready for a baby by December 15... So for now we will be with Dans dad. Saving up money in hopes to be in our own house-- not townhouse :) by the fall next year! I am glad renting our town home is an option, because it is the only we were going to be able to move!

Brynn is changing more and more each day. She is so very close to walking! She has taken a step or two and dropped to the ground. She also stands for a few seconds, then drops to her butt. Her preferable mode of moving is crawling or walking along furniture. She just cruises! Today she figured out how to put her ball into a circle on her toy... It just amazed me. I have video of it that I will post.

So, the next week will be packing/ organizing / arranging movers/ etc. today we are going to se the Trans Siberian Orchestra with my parents... Their Christmas Gift! So one last fun day before we have to work, work, work all week! My hands are raw from all the work we did at my Grandmas yesterday. We ripped up her carpet, painted, ripped out nails... Long day.

Well... Many changes to come! Here is video of Brynnie.

Sleep, Halloween, and New Tricks!

OK... so I spoke too soon. Brynn gave us a couple of decent nights sleep, and then started screaming again. I knew something wasn't right. We ended up bringing her into urgent care to get her ears checked. She had just finished her meds, but I had a feeling either her infection hadn't gone away... or it came right back. Mom was right :) She got a new prescription and so far so good (fingers crossed). She has slept pretty good this week, which makes for a happy mom and dad. She has her follow up appt tomorrow from her first infection, so we will see. I will have to let her Dr. know that she ended up getting more meds since it didn't go away. She also gets her flu shot tomorrow... no fun.

So what have the Babich's been up to? Well we took Brynnie to the apple orchard. We picked out her first pumpkin. We helped my Grandma move into her new room last weekend. We ripped all the carpet out of my Grandpa's old room, and painted it. She has been sleeping in there and she is really enjoying it. We have had our townhome for rent now for the last week and a half. Have had some interest, but no one signing a lease yet. I hope it happens soon. I refuse to leave my house before we have a renters. I don't want to pay for our mortgage and not be living here.

Brynnie enjoyed her first Halloween! We took her to the Mall of America and walked around. I didn't really want to take her trick-or-treating since I would have been the one eating the candy-- which wouldn't have been a good thing. She was a strawberry, and drew a lot of attention to herself!

Dan and I have been enjoying the start to the Wild's season. They have been playing SO SO well. We haven't been going to as many games... but it is so hard with Miss Brynn. I hate leaving her since I am away from her all day.

I am going to be a hunting widow this weekend :( I hate when Dan leaves us. I know he enjoys it, but I will admit it, I am a needy wife and like when he is here. I plan on going to the SSP Football game tomorrow night. We play St. Thomas in the section finals.... again. Brynn will get to hang out for a bit with Grandma Suzie. I have a good feeling though and I hope the boys win. Saturday Dan scheduled me for a massage and facial (I think to make the fact he is leaving this weekend a little less stressful), so that will be so nice. Auntie Shannon will be watching Brynn for me.

Sunday... maybe a little shopping?? :) I should start some Christmas shopping. I am going to really try and not go too crazy. It will be hard having Brynn.

New things Brynn has been doing:
--She waves "Bye Bye". MOST of the time when we do it with her. Sometimes she just stares at us.
-- When we lift our arms up in the air and say "SO big!", she lifts her arms up, too!! SO fun.
--Lots of baby babbles... la la la, ba ba ba, da da da.
-- Says "mama"... and I think "dada"
-- SO CLOSE to standing on her own. She has let go of things quickly and then either sat down or held back on.
--Crawling/ Standing all over the place... and walking behind her "walker" toy.

How will she be 10 months in a week?? I just love her to pieces and feel so blessed to have such a beautiful little girl.

Finally Some Sleep!

Well, as I mentioned in my last post, Brynn had her 9 month appointment last week. She is 29 inches long, 18.8 lbs. 90th % for length, and 50th% for weight. Still long and lean! At her appt we found out Brynn had an ear infection. I was relieved! I had brought her in a couple weeks before when she was sick, and nothing then. I am assuming her cold then led her to her ear infection. She was given amoxicillan, and she is acting like her normal happy self again!!

Sleep. Oh boy. Brynn got that nasty cold probably 3 weeks ago. It kept me home one day with her. Along with her cold, she was teething. Her top two are out and showing now! At the same time, she was developing her ear infection. No wonder she was not sleeping well!! It has been a long month of nights... but the last 2 nights have been awesome!! Last night, she went down about 7:30 without screaming, and didn't wake up until 4 am. I fed her, hoping she would let me sleep in since I didn't have to get up this morning. She did! Woke up at 7 am!! Yay! I hope this trend continues... because she is so much more cheery and like herself! :o)

We had conferences this week. So uneventful. Which is good! My kids this year are so so so awesome, so that is why I think they were so easy. Not a lot of issues to talk about! I am really enjoying these kids. I know I am going to be sad seeing a lot of them move on at the end of the year...

Faith (SSP Varsity Soccer team) plays to go to state tonight. For once, it isn't against Mahtomedi! They have a very good chance at making it to state. I am so happy for the girls (and a little jealous). I really hope they win, and that I am able to make it to the game if they do. The year we had the best chance of making it to state in HS, we played Minnehaha Academy in the Section Finals, and lost 2-0. They went on to win the state tournament. I still remember that game. I remember the field, what the weather was like, everything. Crazy how those things stick with you. I was fortunate at least to win a conference tournament in college, and make it to the National Tournament. Oh the glory days! I sure miss playing soccer at that competitive of a level. I think I will finally be healthy enough to play this summer. Having 2 summers off due to being pregnant/ dealing with post pregnancy issues was a bummer.

We have a guy from Renters Warehouse coming over tomorrow to look at our townhome to see how much we can rent it out for. I know we will probably take a bit of a hit and have to pay a couple hundred a month, but it is what it is. This whole situation though is so depressing. I just wish we could sell our house and buy another one-- like normal people did it 5 years ago. That was our plan. At no fault of our own, we are now in a stupid situation... I hate that we have to live with someone else for a bit of time (most likely) if we want to buy a house. If we didn't, we would be here a lot longer. We have some decisions that need to be made and made fast. If we are renting, they recommend being out by November 1st. That is just around the corner. Ugh. Stress and decisions. I hate decisions.

Today I am going to a market research interview-- I make $100!! Money for shopping :) it is only an hour and it is about diapers. What a good deal! I also have my 2nd chiropractor appt in one week... I am having issues with my shoulder/ neck. It isn't good and I am in a lot of pain. I hope I can get it taken care of.

As far as the rest of the weekend, tomorrow I should clean... maybe squeeze in some shopping :) We have the meeting with the renters warehouse guy. We also should start packing/ organizing if we go that route. Saturday I think I am watching Brynnie's friends, Liam and Sophie. My Friends Kelsey and Kevin (who watch Brynn) are taking some pictures of my other friend Amy's daughter... so I offered to watch the kiddos for them-- the least I can do for them watching my Brynnie everyday... which I know I say all the time, but it is going wonderfully!!! She just loves Kevin... and they all seem to be enjoying her! :)

I think that is all I have for now... here is a video of Miss Brynn from yesterday.

9 Months... Busy, Busy, Busy!

The only reason I am up still is because I am watching Castle. Otherwise, I would typically be in bed. Life has been so busy! Work is going well... Wild season has started... And I am busy chasing Brynn around! She is quite the mover. I am sure it is just a matter of time before she is standing/ walking on her own. She walks all along the couch/ coffee table. It is so fun. She is also starting to copy things we do, and Clapping my hands when put them out. She just is so curious and learning so much. She loves Cheerios Her sleeping has been up and down... Last couple of nights have been good! Hopefully we are turning a corner.

Brynn now has 4 teeth! This is another thing that I think is affecting her sleep. Now that her top two are through and visible... I think that has helped. Hopefully the most painful part is done.

We have her 9 month Appt on Thursday, so I will have to be sure and post her stats after it.

We went to the Wild home opener on Saturday. What a fun game! They look so great. I am excited for what is to come this season.

Other than that not much is new. Looking forward to the cooler weather again. This heat has been crazy. Us Minnesotans are never happy with the weather... Also am planning a trip to the apple orchard this weekend! Forecast looks great :)

Life as a Working Mom

Whoa. I have always had an idea of what life was like for the life of a working mom... or so I thought. I have a whole new appreciation for them. There is not enough hours in the day!! Now that Brynn is no longer stationary, and pulling herself up on EVERYTHING, it is so hard to get stuff done! Not to mention when I get home from working all day, the last thing I want to do is laundry, scrub toilets, dishes, etc. All I want to do is cuddle and play with Brynn. I have been trying to do more work at home as well instead of staying longer at school, because I want to enjoy some time with Brynn before she goes to bed. I am sure we are just going through an adjustment period, and as soon as I figure out what works, something will change!

Speaking of change... I have been SO stressed lately. I think I have written about us deciding to rent out/ sell our townhome. Well, we have come to decide our best option right now is going to be renting it out. So, we will be moving in with my Grandma for a few months until we find a house we want to buy. That way we can save a bit of money, and not be in a rush to find a house. On top of that, we plan on helping out my Grandma. My Grandpa passed away in March, and my Grandma has been alone since. She hates being alone, and could use us there to do things like shovel, mow the lawn, and even help with grocery shopping, cleaning, laundry, and filling her car with gas. I know she is looking forward to the company. I am just stressing about moving Brynn from her familiar room/ house into a new space. She will have her own room there, and we will make it her own... but with me working, and all of our weekends just filling up, I just get stressed about how time consuming it all will be. Packing our house up, cleaning, cleaning out my Grandma's house... my Grandpa was quite the collector. It is going to be ahuge undertaking, and I know my Grandma is overwhelemed with it all, as am I. I just wish we could blink and it would be done. I am sure there will be more updates on that as we move forward with it all.

I am at home with Miss Brynn today. She has been doing so great with her "manny," as I like to call him. Kevin is so great with her, as is Kelsey in the afternoons when she is home. Brynn loves Sophie and Liam and I am sure enjoys playing with them everyday! However, she has come down with her first cold of the season. I am bringing her in today because she has a runny nose, was sneezing, but the big thing I have noticed is her eyes seem to be puffy and a little red. And she is rubbing them a lot, not just when she is tired. It may be nothing, but for piece of mind, I want to get her checked out. I hope she is better by Monday, today was not a great day for me to have to miss. One downfall of missing work as a teacher, it can really mess with your schedule and set you back.

Other than that... life has been hectic. Just trying to adjust to my new role as a working mom. Dan has had some late nights too working with Kolby and her training... so we haven't been able to connect as much as I would like either- since I am in bed so early now that I am back at work. Happy autumnal equinox! Have a great weekend :)

8 Months and a Rant

I am going to start with my rant. It is something that has been on my mind since right after I had Brynn, and I just needed to figure out when I wanted to voice my mind about it.

All of you moms out there know people always share their birth stories and ask about yours. Some women take pride in having a "natural" birth, other have no issues using drugs to ease their pain. Why is it that we as moms then are always judging eachother? Let me explain...

If you have been following my blog, you know I ended up with an emergency C-section with Brynn. It wasn't planned. It wasn't wanted. It was necessary. Why is it then when I say I had a c-section when I am asked about her birth, I feel like I need to explain and defend myself? I get this look from some moms like "oh... that is too bad." Almost like I am less of a mother for it. I should not feel like I have to explain that my c-section was an emergency. I am THANKFUL for the technology that is in place that allowed my doctor to determine a c-section was necessary. If our modern day technology had not existed, Brynn would not be here today. If I had not trusted in my doctors and refused a c-section like so many mothers say to do, I would have been putting Brynn's life at risk and again, she wouldn't have survived delivery with her cord wrapped around her neck four times.

I usually don't use my blog as a space to preach... but this was something that just had really irked me. Having a home birth or natural birth for some moms is what they want to do. Is it something I would choose to do? No. But I don't judge them for it. I am and was happy giving birth in a hospital. I was in a place that I felt comfortable, and could quickly be helped in the case of an emergency. I went into labor hoping and praying for a healthy baby most importantly, and also wanting the experience of a vaginal birth. No, I didn't get the delivery I wanted, but Brynn was healthy, perfect, and beautiful, and in the end... isn't that what matters?

OK. Switching gears :) Brynn is a big 8 month old tomorrow! No major milestones since last entry... just crawling like crazy and trying to pull herself up on everything... so she has a huge bruise right now on her forehead from that! She and I both survived her first week of daycare. School went great, and I have some amazing kids this year. I think it is going to be a really good year.

I need to upload some pics to the computer. I haven't been takinng as many since I have been back at work the last 2 weeks. I finally get a pay check this week so that is exciting, too! I will try to get some up tomorrow or early this week.

With tomorrow being 9.11, please remember our fallen heros and our men and women who are overseas protecting us, as well as the ones right here on our own land protecting us from hatred. God bless them and all their families.

Back to Work!

So, a lot has happened in the last week! I started back at work, and Brynnie has met some milestones!

Work of course was fine, I knew it would be. I was worried about how Brynn would handle being at daycare. How would she sleep and eat? Those were the 2 things I worried most about. And guess what? She did fine at both! She is taking the bottle just fine and eating her sweet potatoes :) She also napped well. Whew. It makes this going back to work thing a whole lot easier when I know she is getting what she needs! Kevin and Kelsey's kiddos seem to just love her, too. One of the days I showed up to pick her up, Sophie was singing to her. So sweet.

Being at work means I have to pump. Something I hate. I already have seen my supply take a hit... and it is so tempting to just not pump at work. I am going to give it this week and see how it goes. If I can make it one more week, then that means I made it until Brynn was 8 months, and that I am proud of. I would still breastfeed her at night and morning as much as I can, just cut out the daytime when I am at work. She is going to start eating more solids now anyway. This weekend, we gave her crackers which she loved. I also got her some puffs and stuff to try with her. It is so fun!

As far as milestones... holy buckets! Pulling to stand??! How did that happen? She still prefers to crawl with her belly on the ground, she can move fastest that way, but will crawl with her belly off the floor. She now is trying to pull herself to stand off everything since she figured out she could, so here come the bumps and bruises! She has crash landed a few times, but luckily hasn't hit anything sharp or anything. I am loving our coffee table right now since it is leather and not wood. She wont hurt herself on that! She also is screaming when she gets mad/ frustrated/ happy. Piercing screams. Luckily it is just a shriek and not constant... but it is loud!

Not sure what we are going to do today... think we may head to the zoo. It is going to be a beautiful day so we might as well take advantage of it! Hope it isn't too crazy. I am sure I will have a lot to update after my first week with the kids! I am really excited to meet them!!

Here is a little look into Brynn's world :)

Milestones and Changes

Well it is amazing how much has changed in just the last couple of weeks. Brynn was at the Beyer's (they are who will be watching her when I go to work) about 2 weeks ago... and just in that little of time, I feel like they are getting a much different baby! Brynn now can go from laying down to sitting herself up. It is so cute, but also causing some problems at nap time/ bed time. If she isn't super tired, or asleep in my arms, it has been a battle. She keeps sitting up in her crib... because she can. She is also mobile now... so if she gets bored with her toys, watch out. She is most likely wanting something she shouldn't have.

Bottles and solids are still something she isn't extremely interested in... bottles she will need to learn fast that she needs to be ok with them. As far as solids go, it will happen. She loves her sweet potatoes. LOVES them. I made a huge batch of them for her. I just made some apples so we will have to try those soon. Solids don't have a ton of nutritional value before the age of 1, so I feel ok about that. She gets them typically 1-2 times a day, or I should say we attempt them :) But some days, when we will be out all day, I just nurse her. Speaking of that... I decided I am going to pump at least 1x a day while at work. I am not quite sure of the logistics of it yet... but as much as I hate pumping, I am going to give it a shot.

Brynn also had her first trip to Eveleth and Lake Vermillion. The weather was fabulous and she had a good time. She even went mini golfing with us and she hung out in my Beco on my back! It wwas so cute. She went to Grandma Babich's house for the first time as well. Grandma was so excited to see her.

Were heading to the fair today. SO pumped for that, but not so pumped for having to battle the crowds with a stroller. I would just wear her in my Beco, but being there all day, I know that will be hot/ tiring/ and she will nap a lot better in her stroller. Hopefully it goes ok. I can't wait to eat- although last year was amazing being pregnant and being able to eat. I am pretty sure I blogged about that last year :)

Tomorrow is my first day back to work. I am not going to lie, I am excited. Of course I am sad to leave Brynn, I will worry about whether or not she is eating, or sleeping, but I am looking forward to some "me" time. Some time to catch up with friends from work.. and time away from the house. I am ready for a new school year and excited for what the year will bring. It will be a fun ride adjusting to working full time while having a baby. I am preparing myself for exhaustion and lots of sleep deprevation.

Here is a video of Brynnie in her jumper!



Pictures of Brynnie from the lake!

7 Months!!

Well, Brynnie is officially 7 months. She is so close to crawling... it has to happen in the next week. She is definitely mobile-- rolling and scooting to what she wants. I know it is just a matter of time.

Next week is the start of preseason for high school soccer. I can't believe it is here already! I am going to stop down at the field I think on Wednesday or Thursday during the scrimmages. I then may head over to school and get some stuff done in my classroom. I am actually getting really excited for the year to start. I do love teaching... and love the kids, so I am looking forward to that. I am not looking forward to my massive class sizes, but that is just the reality of education right now, unfortunatly. Of course I will miss Brynnie, but based on the first couple days of her being with Kevin and Kelsey, I know it will be great. They are so good with her.

I know anxiety is something I have been open about it posts before... I just know it is something I am going to battle with the rest of my life. I just wish it could be consistent! It is so up and down. I have an appt. with my doctor on Monday about my meds and have a feeling it would be a good idea to up the dosage because it has been pretty bad lately... and I am on a minumum dosage right now. I just have a feeling it might get worse once work starts. Yes, I am excited to be back, but that doesn't take away the stress of being away from Brynn. Plus, I am getting back in the routine of worrying about dumb little stuff, and that is usually a signal that it is getting worse. Believe it or not, I am not anxious/ worried about Brynn as much as I thought I would be. I think the biggest hurdle for me with her was just getting her here! Once I had her in my arms, that was all I needed. Obviously as she gets older, I know worries will come and go, but for right now, it is so nice just being able to enjoy her.

Last night we went to Brew at the Zoo with my friend Katie and Eric. It was SO fun. It was a beautiful night, lots of great beer, food, and music. Our friend Alex was in town working at it, and he was so awesome and was able to get us in with free tickets. He works for Capital Brewery out in Madison, WI. GREAT beer :o) We then went to Sweeneys after and met up with Sara, John, and Kelsey. We drank some more beer (and soda), had some wings, and had some good laughs. And, to top it off... guess how late I stayed out?? Until midnight! It was the latest I have been out since Brynn was born, and she was sleeping like a baby when I got to my mom and dads. I also texted my mom a lot less throughout the night, so it is becoming a little bit easier to go out and enjoy myself. Heck, my mom raised 4 kids so she is more of a pro at stuff than I am! :)

Today we are heading up to Dan's moms to visit, and to get Kolby some training. She is staying up there right now and we are getting her trained on the electric fence, and some behavior training. I hope it goes well and she has success. I miss her and hope we get out of this townhome so we can have her again and in our OWN backyard. We are really trying to figure out what exactly we want to do-- rent or try selling our house. We know we will take a loss on our house, that is just the reality if we sell. I just hope we get it figured out soon. We are outgrowing this house fast.

Let's see... tomorrow will probably be church and maybe going to my parents house. If it is nice we like to go over there to swim/ let the dogs play in the back yard/ eat/ just visit!

At night time, we play Jewels Lullaby CD for Brynn, and there is one song on it that I just LOVE. The lyrics just have so much meaning to me, so I am going to leave you with them.

The song is called "Forever and a Day"
The other day you asked me to
Tell you how much I love you.
Oh but words so often fail,
To describe the depth and scale,
and even though it may sound cliche,
I'll tell you now in my simple way.

My love is as true as the oceans are blue,
and I always feel this way.
Just listen to the beating that keeps repeating
My heart wants to say
Like Gala and Dali, it's you and me,
Forever and a day.

How is it August??

Ok. I have been pathetic this last month updating my blog. I just don't know where the time goes. I am so nervous about going back to work... I can't believe I only have 3 weeks. Considering I have been off since December 10, it isn't going to be easy. On top of that, I am going to have to leave Brynn... I have a feeling it isn't going to be pretty. Bring on the stress and anxiety :-/

Brynn will be testing it out with Kevin and Kelsey on Monday while I go to work for the day... to say I am nervous is an understatment. After spending the last 7 months with her, she has a strong dependance on me, (and me on her!) and I of course just know all the little tricks to get her to sleep. That is my biggest concern. I worry about her being a stinker and not wanting to nap. I will sit and rock her and can nurse her...until she falls asleep if I need to, but I wont be there for her. It actually breaks my heart when I think about it. I know Kevin and Kels will great, but I am just so worried about it. I am also having a hard time deciding if I want to supplement during the day while I am at work, or pump. I still definitly want to nurse her in the morning and after work/ evening... but have no idea how my supply will be affected if I dont pump at work, so I don't know what to do...

The last month has been busy. We had our family vacation to Door County which was so nice. It went way too fast. While we were out there we then had one of my best friend's from college wedding, Amber Jean :o) It was so good to see her and Erica! I miss them both so much. I lived with Amber for 3 years and Erica for 2... and on top of that we all played soccer together, and Amber and I had all our education classes together! So say I miss them is an understatement. Amber looked beautiful and I am so, so, so happy for her and Scott!

While in Door County we did a lot. We putted around all the little harbors, had breakfast at Al Johnson's (retaurant with goats on the roof), toured a winery, walked around a cherry orchard, took a boat cruis on Lake Michigan, explored a state park, ate a lot of great food, and of course walked around a few marinas to look at the boats. We also did a lot of swimming at our resort since Miss Brynn LOVES the water. We had a great trip!

As far as updates on Brynnie, she has 2 teeth! They broke through at the same time! They are her bottom center teeth. She also is moving all over. not quite crawling yet, but almost. She is scooting, but ends up pushing herself backwards. She gets up on her hands and knees, and rocks, but hasn't figured out how to move from there. She is sitting up really well independantly, too. Oh, and apparently, she only likes sweet potatoes right now! I have tried apple, banana, prunes, pears... nothing. But she LOVES sweet potatoes. I don't blame her, they are delicious! She is still taking a bottle really well and will drink out of her sippy cup, too!

Brynn has not been sleeping as well anymore. I don't know if it is teething or what-- but she wakes up a lot, especially between the time we put her down (between 7:30-8) until about midnight. She then has been waking up at least once if not twice after that ... I am not used to it. It started when we got home from vacation... so hopefully it is a little phase.

We just put up one gate, and attempted another but it is too narrow so we need to return it. We also took down her swing since she doesn't use it anymore! I can't believe how fast this is all going. Time to babyproof big time around the house.

Tomorrow Brynn will be going to her first Twins game. I hope the weather cooperates... if not we are sitting in the Legends Club so we should be ok. This week are are finishing up week 2 of swimming lessons! So fun to see Brynn in the water. We signed her up for them again this fall in hopes that she doesn't lose her love of water over the winter.

I guess that is it for now. Hopefully I will be better about updating more this month. One last thought, since I am not coaching this fall, it is going to be weird not being at tryouts and stuff beginning in a week. It will be the first time I am not coaching in the fall since 2005. Crazy.

Here are some pictures from our trip!!

II took this video in mid July of Brynnie making one of her silly noises. She does this when she has her links all the time. Too funny :)

Six Months!... and other things...

Whew. I don't know what I have been doing, but time is flying. Let's see... since I last updated we have had the 4th of July and Brynn has turned 6 months! We had our appt. today and she is 27 inches and 16.8 lbs. She is long and skinny! Which makes it hard to find pants that fit her well right now. They are either too short if they fit her waist, or to big in the waist if they fit her length.

Brynn is now sitting unsupported... but will topple over every now and then. She will push her feet on the floor while she is on her belly and push her butt in the air :) She has been sleeping pretty well still, but has had some off nights. I think it must be due to teething. It makes me thankful I don't have to get up and go to work the next day, but maked me nervous about when I do go back to work and we have nights like that. She moves all over in her bed... she is never where I left her!

Speaking of work, I can't believe how close we are getting to the school year. I know I probably sound like a broken record, but I have such mixed feelings. Ahhhh! I just don't want to think about it. We did get iPads though, and I have been having a lot of fun playing around on that!

We are coming up on our trip to Door County. I can't wait to get out of town for a bit. I hope Brynn does well on an acctual vacation. I am sure she will, she is super easy going (she definitly doesn't get that from me).

This week Brynn has had the pleasure of watching some amazing soccer games with me. She got to hear me yell and jump up and down with me when my girl Abby scored the header goal in the game against Brazil on Sunday. It's been so fun watching the games and I can't wait to watch the final on Sunday. It makes me miss playing college ball though SO MUCH. Competing at a high level, there is nothing like it. I can't imagine what it is like playing on the National Team.

Brynn has pretty much outgrown her bouncy seat, I put her in it still every now and then when I shower and she is awake, but she basically sits up in it and she looks goofy :) Her swing is becoming obsolete, too... she's not too interested in being in it. Her favorite toy right now has to be her Baby Einstein jumper. She loves being in it and is so content when she is for quite a long time.

I have been giving Brynn a bottle every day-- for the most part-- and she is still doing ok. Doesn't love it, but isn't screaming every time it comes near her mouth. I have not been giving her "real food" every day either, but have tried it a couple of times now that we have hit the 6 month mark. She has had sweet potatoes, and I tried pears for the first time yesterday, and she wasn't too sure about it. I may mix it in with cereal tomorrow and see how that goes. I feel ike breastfeeding was so easy... just feed her when she is hungry. Now I have no idea what I am doing :) But have been making my own food, which I enjoy! I need to get better about making sure she gets solids at least once a day right now... because I want her to be eating them well by time she goes to Kelsey and Kevin's this fall.

Me and Brynnie at the Zoo

Shannon's Wedding and Other Firsts...

Whoa. Where do I begin?! What a week it has been. Brynn, Dan, and I have been busy. Our excitement started last Friday-- Shannon and Nick's rehersal dinner! The beginning of the wedding weekend. It was wonderful. We had dinner at Stephano's in Burnsville. The dinner was so good, and it was just so nicely done. Nick's mom did a great job planning and hosting it! Brynn also did well, so that was nice-- we were able to enjoy ourselves and stay longer than I thought.

Saturday was the big wedding day! I was excited to get all dolled up, but nervous about how Brynn would do. It was going to be a long day. I showed up at the salon at 9:15 am. I was getting my manicure, then my hair done, and then make-up. Dan was meeting the boys at 10 so he hung around with Brynn until then. It worked perfect, because he took her on a little car ride, she fell asleep, we put her in the stroller, and she napped! She woke up after my hair was done... I was able to feed her, change her, and she was happy until we left the salon at like 12:30-1.

We finally got to the church and got Shannon into her dress! She was so calm and cool, and beautiful. She and Nick had some alone time, and the rest of us girls got our dresses on-- and I got Brynn to sleep once again. She slept through all the family pictures, which was good because she napped, but sad because she wasn't in them! She woke up right at 3:30, giving me just enough time to feed her quick before the wedding began at 4 pm. She was so happy and alert during the wedding-- and good for Dan. Once the wedding was over, Brynn was going to be off with my mom while we were on the limo. I felt bad about sending her off, but my mom reassured me it was fine. Brynn was a rockstar! She slept the whole time! By time we got back to the reception, she was still sleeping. She woke up right when dinner was being served, and right before my Matron of Honor speech-- so it was perfect! Dan's dad was awesome and came down and picked her up, and took her for the night.

As far as the wedding and reception-- it was perfect... and SO fun. Obviously, I think mine and Dan's wedding was the best :o) but Shannon's was super fun for a traditional wedding. I didn't want to leave the dance floor-- and I really didn't I was paying for it on Sunday because my c-section incision was hurting! I must have really over done it! My feet also were sore until Tuesday! So worth it though.

Onto another subject-- my physical therapy for my pelvic pain. I am making progress. I went in for a follow up appt on Tuesday and my Dr. was pleased with the progress I have made so far. I need to keep doing my stretches and stuff so hopefully it only continues to get better.

Today, I took Brynnie to the zoo for the first time! She basically slept the whole time, but she was so good. It was super hot so we did the outdoor stuff first before it got too hot. We went with Amis and her two kiddos. I decided to buy a membership as well, since it pays itself so fast. I am sure I will go a few more times, too before the summer is over. It is only a 5 minute drive from my house! I am looking forward to bringing her when she is actually awake to see things :o)

This weekend we have a birthday celebration for my Grandma, and will be getting together with Dan's mom and family on Monday. The weather is supposed to be beautiful all weekend, so hopefully they are finally right. I am also hoping to get Brynn into the pool tomorrow finally for the first time!

Hope everyone has a safe and Happy 4th of July!!

Just a Few Thoughts.

Monday night Dan and I did our date night at the mall. We went to dinner at Crave... and had to exchange Dan's cowboy boots, yes, you read that correctly. Dan wanted a pair of cowboy boots, so I bought him the pair he wanted for Father's Day. He needed a pair a little bit smaller, so we needed to exchange them. I had eaten at Crave before, but Dan hadn't. Brynn was pretty good. Of course the second food came out, she decided she wanted to be held. At least she didn't cry though.

Anyway, as we were taking the elevator out to the car, a group of 4 boys came onto the elevator. They look like they were about 14. They were making fun of eachother and just being goofy. I was wearing an MSU shirt and one of them told me their older brother went there. They went on to ask how old Brynn was. The one got off the elevator on the wrong floor, and they were making fun of him. I had asked them how old they were and they said they were going into 10th grade. Anyway, what is my point? It made me realize how much I really miss the kids at school. Those goofy boys are so much fun. Of course there are always those kids that you don't mind saying goodbye to at the end of the year, but I really miss the relationships with kids that are so great. It put a smile on my face for the rest of the night.

Speaking of school.... I have a new friend joining my classroom next year. Captain. He is a bearded dragon. I think the kids are really going to love him. I am excited! He was donated to me by a former student.

3 days until Shannon's wedding! I am so excited to get my spray tan, and get my make-up, hair, and nails done. I know I said this before, but I really hope Brynn has a good day Saturday. AND the weather is suppose to be good!

Picture of Brynn right after having rice cereal for the first time

Family Pic on Father's Day

5 Months!

Life has been hectic here. I am been dealing with some anxiety issues (go figure) but I am feeling a lot better. SO-- that is why I haven't gotten to writing lately. When I get into my anxiety mode, I shut down. You should see my house. I have a lot to catch up on this week and with Shannon's wedding next Saturday, it is going to be busy!!

In the life of Brynn, she has discovered that she can sleep on her belly since she can roll over... so she has kind of been sleeping on her side/ belly. She is so alert and interested in her surroundings. She loves grabbing at Kolby and Maia, and they don't seem to mind :) I also started trying to give her rice cereal. A common theme in my posts is her not wanting a bottle, so I am hoping she will become more interested in solids soon! I wasn't planning on trying until 6 months, but I am desperate for some time for me-- a night out with Dan-- and me not worrying about her being starving while I am away. She is NOT interested in the cereal. It is a fight to try and get her to eat it. Once it goes in her mouth, it is ok, but she doesn't want the spoon in her mouth.

We also won a contest on facebook through Cassie Hop Photography! I coudln't believe it. At one point I wanted to give up since we were down by like 50 votes, but us Murphy girls are competitive. With the help of a lot of friends, and a lot of friends of my friends... we won! We will be able to have 6 month pictures of Brynn taken, and get $200 worth of free prints! I can't wait to see them, because all of her pictures on her website are amazing. Thanks again to all of our friends and family who helped.

I am officially down to pre-Brynn weight! I have about 10-15 pounds to go to get to where I was before I was pregnant with Elizabeth. COnsidering it hasn't been 6 months yet, I am happy with where I am at.

I have had a lot of time to think about going back to work in the fall... and I think I am going to be ok with it. I say that now, but come August, I may feel differently. I know Brynn will be in good hands, and I really miss teaching and my awesome teacher freinds. I know life will be a lot harder-- Brynn will need more attention-- eating solids and stuff, crawling all over, and I will have to keep the house clean while working full time. It will be an adjustment but I think I will be ok (I hope). I am just so thankful to have this time off with Brynn that I have had.

I started physical therapy last week to help with my pelvic pain in hopes to getting to play soccer soon and run. As I expected, my whole body is messed up. So, I need to make sure I do a good job doing the stretches I am supposed to do to help myself feel better.

Shannon's wedding is in less than a week! I can't wait-- it is going to be so fun :o) I am also looking forward to getting all dressed up, too. I haven't done that in a while! I am also hoping Brynn is good that day. She usually is, so hoping Saturday is no different. I do have a nasty sinus cold going on right now, so I am hoping she doesn't get that, because with my luck, she will get it so she is sick next weekend.

I always think of things I want to write in my blog, and then I forget... so I am hoping I remembered most of the stuff I wanted to say. I will have some more pics to post this week... I need to put some on the computer from the weekend.

We are heading to my parents here in a little bit to celebrate Father's Day. I wish the weather was nicer... we could have taken Brynnie swimming for the first time. So I will end today by saying Happy Father's Day to my dad-- the strongest man I know. What his body and mind have been through over the last 6 years is something I can't imagine dealing with. And of course, my Dan. He is my rock. I know I may annoy him because I am high maintenance in terms of wanting to be around him, but he makes me feel safe and happy. He is the best dad, and can't wait to see him and Brynn do more together as Brynn grows up.

It's June, and It's Finally Summer!

Well, in true Minnesota fashion, we skipped spring all together this year. Nothing like adjusting to 95 degree days with high humidity after a winter like we had. I am not complaining though. After all that snow and cold we had, and being cooped up in the house... I would rather have hot weather, and see the sun shining and leaves on the trees :o)

This weekend we went up to Nisswa with Dan's mom. I just love it up there. We stayed on GUll Lake. I really wish we had more time up there together. It makes me really excited for our vacation to Door County later this summer. We spent Saturday on a pontoon out on the lake. Brynn was a rockstar. I couldn't believe how well she sleeped on the boat! I thought I was going to have to come in and sit in the cabin while she slept... but she napped so well! I am sure all the fresh air helped.

Sunday we shopped in Nisswa, and had some pizza for lunch. It was such a wonderful weekend, and so nice to have this beautiful weather here!

This week, I plan on working on some stuff for Shannon's wedding. I can't believe how fast that is coming up! I can't wait. I also NEED to get Brynn's clothes she has outgrown packed up. They have been sitting in a laundry basket in her room, and I need to get them packed away. I also would like to get some shelves and things for Brynn's room. Hopefully in the next couple of weeks.

Brynn is so much fun! She rooled from her tummy to her back today a couple of times, but not sure if it will be consistent. We will see... she also started grabbing her feet. Maybe she has found them :) All I know is her personality is beginning to show and I just love how interactive she is with us now. I am so looking forward to starting solids with her soon, too. I hope she likes them :)

Brynn's going to be 5 months this upcoming weekend. Wow. I can't believe it. Maybe we will have to do something special to celebrate :)

Milestones

Well, Brynn now loves to roll from her back to her tummy. She has done it so many times now, I lost count. The problem is... she doesn't like her tummy, and hasn't figured out rolling from her tummy to her back. So, her new game is rolling to her tummy, then crying for me to flip her over. It is cute :)

Here is a picture of her not looking so happy after her accomplishment

17 day diet is going all right. I am down 2 pounds, but did cheat a bit this weekend. Starting on a Friday made it tough... because I have a feeling weekends will be hard. Today I was back on track though! I hope this week goes well.

Here was my dinner tonight: Sesame Salmon, Aspargus, and an amazing salad.

Dan and I took Brynn to Afton State Park yesterday. We hadn't been there before... and we really liked it. The St. Croix River is so high. The beach and some paths by the water were underwater. We hope to make it there again for a picnic and some fishing/ swimming with family.

This upcoming weekend we will be going up to the Nisswa area to stay at his moms time share. I am really looking forward to it, and the weather is suppose to finally be nice! We just bought Brynn a life jacket today, it is so cute. I will be sure to take a lot of pictures so I can post some when we get home.

I can't believe Brynn is almost 5 months old. Yikes. She is so much fun and I just love spending my days with her. We are coming up on June 5, which was my due date with Elizabeth. I can't believe she would be a year old this weekend had all gone perfectly. Last year I knew I was pregnant with Brynn on the 5th, but it was still a tough day. I pampered myself with getting my hair done. This year we will be up north, and I will have Brynn to cuddle. I will definitly be thinking about her though.

Where is Spring?

I have not been very good in the last couple of weeks updating my blog. I guess because I feel like there isn't really anything interesting happening in my life, which I guess you can look at as a good thing.

OK. I know we are Minnesotans and are never happy with our weather... but seriously. After the winter we had, and the lack of spring... this is getting rediculous. Last night Dan and I went on a walk with Brynn and the dogs, and I had Brynn in fleece pjs, a blanket, and a hat. May 25. That is just pathetic. Yes, the sun is out today which is nice, but it is cold. I have all of these cute summer outfits for Brynn she isn't going to be able to wear before she outgrowns them!

This last weekend I survived with just me and no Dan. It was me taking care of the dogs and Brynn. I feel like it's a bigger deal being in a townhome since I can't just let the dogs out the door. I have to put them on their leashes and walk them outside so being here alone with them in Brynn all weekend gives me no break.

Friday night I ended up just watching a movie off Netflix. I knew Saturday was going to be a busy day. Saturday we had Shannon's wedding shower and her Bachelorette Party. Brynn was super cranky during her shower because it was her nap time, but we survived. My mom watched Brynn during Shannon's Bachelorette Party. I get so nervous since she wont take a bottle! Plus I just felt like sitting on my couch and cuddling with her that night. Needless to say, as Shannon's Matron of Honor, I sucked it up and headed off to Chatterbox Pub. I decorated before the whole group came. I think it turned out pretty well. We had drinks, dinner, opened gifts, and then headed off to Billy's. I stayed out until about 10:30 and then headed to my mom's to get Brynn. She was so cranky, I felt bad. I think she is just getting used to her bedtime routine and her own bed. And of course needing her momma :) It felt good to get out for a while, but it's hard because I just wish I could completely relax when being away from her. I am sure it will be a while before that happens.

Sunday morning Brynn let me sleep until 7:40am... better than the typical 6 or 6:30 afte a late night! We just hung around home Sunday and waited for Dan to get home.

Monday and Tuesday of this week were my cleaning days. Got the laundry done and all of that fun stuff. However, today it looks like the house hasn't been cleaned all week. I don't get how that happens.

So I am beginning the 17 Day Diet tomorrow. My fridge is stocked full of fruit, veggies, eggs, and chicken. If you watch Dr. Phil or Dr. Oz, they featured this diet on there. I have never been a dieter, or needed to, but I really want this last 20-25 pounds of baby weight off. I really like the way this diet is layed out, because you gradually get to add stuff into your diet and eat things you like. I really am only going to follow it strictly until I get to my goal weight. Then I should be fine managing it. We will see how it goes. I really, really want to stick to it since people get such good results. I have nothing to lose I guess!

I also just made an appointment to begin physical therapy. I had such bad pelvic pain when I was pregnant with Brynn. SO BAD. I couldn't wait to not be pregnant for it to go away. Well...I am still dealing with it. I wanted to play soccer SO BAD this summer, but I can't even run it hurts so bad. My first appointment is June 13th. I wish I could get in sooner, but that is a start. I really hope it helps because I really miss soccer, and believe it or not, running.

No big plans for Memorial Weekend. We will be in town, and go figure, it is supposed to rain. Hopefully we figure out something fun to do. We may go hiking or try geocaching. I am really glad Dan has an extra day off. Hope everyone has a safe holiday weekend!

Baptism and Graduation

Brynn's baptism went well. It didn't last too long, and we headed off to my parents house for a little get together. It was so nice to have the sun out finally. We had pulled beef, a bunch of salads, fruit, veggies, and a yummy chocolate cake from Byerly's.

Brynn got some fabulous gifts from relatives. Necklaces, outfits, money, but my favorite would have to be a bonnet my sister gave her. Shannon got the same gift at her baptism from my Aunt Monica and Uncle Larry (her godparents). It is an Irish tradition... the baby wears the bonnet at her baptism, and then it becomes a hanky to use for her wedding. Shannon just found out about it as she and my mom have been getting ready for her wedding... so what a perfect gift for her to get Brynn as her godmother. It made me tear up :) And even more so thinking about her getting married. So crazy to think of that.

Here she is in her bonnet with Grandma :)

Monday morning Dan had his graduation ceremony. Brynn slept through the entire thing. It was a nice ceremony... and I was really glad Brynn was content so I was able to watch it.

This week Brynn's sleep pattern has changed. I know I have been so spoiled so I shouldn't complain... but after being so spoiled it is hard :) Brynn has been needing to nurse in order for her to calm down and go to sleep. She has never been like this. She was able to self soothe herself and just be put into her crib and fall asleep on her own. After talking to some people about it, I am thinking it has something to do with her being so much more alert and aware of her surroundings. It is harder for her to calm down and relax, because she is so overstimulated since she is so curious about her surroundings. I am hoping it is a phase... but we shall see.

Dan is fishing this weekend...and I have Shannon's Bachelorette Party. Another night of being away from Brynn, and me worrying about her not eating. Now with this whole needing to nurse thing in order for her to fall asleep, I will have that on my mind as well. I am sure it will be fine. My mom has a lot of experience :)

A Little of This... a Little of That.

This morning will probably be a short post... just a couple of things I felt like writing about. Brynn's 4 month stats: She is 13.9 lbs. (50th %), her head is in the 60th %, and she is 25 in. long (80th %). I call her my little string bean :) Long and skinny. She looked healthy and was a rockstar while getting her shots! Feeding her right after has seemed to help.

Last night we had Dan's graduation dinner at Jensen's Supper Club. Their food is amazing. I had Alaskan King Crab Legs! It was interesting though... Brynn got super cranky right when the food came out, and I ended up taking her out to the car until I got her calmed down. I eventually got to eat :) He actually finished school in December (right after I was put on bedrest), but his graduation ceremony is Monday. His grandparents are in town for Brynn's baptism, so it worked out well to have his dinner last night. Since this weekend is fishing opener, it does feel weird having him home (I don't think he likes that he is too much). I think he is ok with it though... he is going up to Leech lake with my Dad and the Murphy side of the family and friends. I know he looks forward to that and has a good time.

This morning I put Brynn on her playmat. She spun herself in a full circle in the course of her laying and playing! It was so funny watching her move herself by swinging her legs. She is just too cute.

Well, today is her big day. I will have pics to post next entry. I hope she does well and isn't cranky during church :)

On a last note... as a huge Minnesota Wild fan, the passing of Derek Boogaard is such a huge loss. I still have a hard time believing he is gone. Thoughts and prayers go out to his family. So sad.

4 Months

Brynn is 4 months old today! How did that happen? She is so fun to be around... so smiley and interacts with me :)

Well last weekend was busy. We had my high school reunion, which was a lot of fun. A suprise birthday party for my mom, and Mother's Day. Last year Mother's Day was not as wonderful as this year's. Last Mother's Day I was a mother with no child to hold/ kiss. My baby was in heaven... and I had found out I had another baby in my belly. Like I posted last year right after I announced I was pregnant again, I was scared to death... so needless to say Mother's Day last year was not so great.

This Mother's Day was wonderful! We went to Dan's aunts for brunch. All of the grandkids were in town for Mother's Day which made Dan's grandma very happy. It was a big deal because Dan's cousin Alex had to fly in from Boston and his cousin Tague had to fly in from Utah. It had been a very long time since all of them (there are 6 of them) had been together. We then went to my Grandma's in the afternoon. Brynn got me a painting that I have wanted for the last 3 years! It was a painting that we first saw when we went to Duluth. Each year when we went up there, I would go look at it, and think about buying it, but didn't. This last year I said if it was there, I would buy it to hang in Brynn's room. Well, it wasn't. So, Dan suprised me with it! He had to order it and it hasn't come yet... but can't wait until it gets here.

Picture of the Painting

Me and Brynn on Mother's Day

The Whole Gang (Nelson Family- Dan's Mom's Side) on Mother's Day

Then there is Maia... oh Maia. There was one night about 2 months ago that Dan and I woke up to Maia at the side of the bed. Her whole body was randomnly jerking/ twitching. It would jerk and she would be fine and 30 seconds later it would happen again. We were so freaked out Dan took her to the animal hospital at 3:00 am. By time he got there she had stopped. The vet thought it could be the start of epilepsy and keep an eye on it. He wasn't too concerned. Well, on Sunday night, we woke up at 1 am to her again doing this jerking thing. Well, as many of you know, I have anxiety. Waking up at 1 am to this is not a great way to wake up. She is conscious while she does it. I get all worked up, freaked out. They are not "normal" sezures. From the research I have found it sounds like they could be Myoclonis Seizures. What Maia does sounds pretty similar to the description of them. I have no idea what has caused them... I am thinking we need to bring her into the vet again. I want to know what is wrong, so I can not just let my imagination run wild. She acts like her normal self otherwise! And while the jerking happens, she just acts super lovey and wants to cuddle. So-- each day this week I have felt better, but still anxious feeling about it.

Brynn ALMOST rolled over this morning. She is closer to rolling from her back to tummy I think than her tummy to back. She has her 4 month appointment tomorrow-- 3 shots :( I am not looking forward to that, but am excited to see how much she has grown.

We have another busy weekend. I have a wedding shower, Dan's graduation dinner, and Brynn's baptism. We also have to prepare for that so we will be busy! Pictures to come next week :)

Overwhelming feeling....

.... of being in love. Seriously. I just had to post this morning because I am sitting on my couch, watching my DVRd Bethenny Ever After, and Brynn is sitting in her swing playing with her Mr. Elephant. Sometimes I just look at her and get this overwhelmed feeling... it is hard to explain. It seriously feels almost as though I love her more and more everyday, if that is even possible. I just look at her and smile. How can you not?

Last night, we got home from my parents house a little after 9. Brynn fell asleep in the car, and I put her in her crib for the night when we got home. (She slept til 7am this morning by the way!) Anyway... I am exhausted by that time at night. However, I just can't go to bed at night after she goes down. I always stay up for an hour and a half- two hours just to have some "me" time. Dan probably doesn't understand it... but all day long, I feel as though I am taking care of her, playing with her, or cleaning. Sometimes when she is napping, I get a little bit of time, but I am always waiting for her to wake up. So, even though I am so tired, I put off sleeping for a while just to whind down.

I had to get up and put her down in the middle of writing this entry. I feel like I am really getting to know her cues and know what she needs. FINALLY after almost 4 months :) Her naps are never that long though... but usually she naps, eats, plays. She is usually only awake about 1.5-2 hours, then needs to go down for a nap again.

I just went up to check on her, I had to pull her lovey away from her face- she buries her face into soft things to self soothe herself, which I am glad she can do. Anyway, as I walked out of her room, I just broke down. I thought to myself, this is what I have been waiting for. I have my healthy baby girl sleeping in her crib. I have met her needs, and she is sleeping. I truly had been waiting for this moment since Sept. of 2009.. when we found out we were pregnant with Elizabeth.

Well... funny how this blog ended in a direction I had no idea it would. I guess that is what happens when I have to stop writing to take care of Brynn about 3 times in the course of this entry :) I started writing about a half hour ago! Haha. So worth it though.

PS. I love Bethenny Frankel.

Giggles!

As many of my facebook friends saw, I made Brynn giggle for the first time last night! Dan had made her giggle on Friday, so that was when I heard it for the first time. I was ddetermined to make her giggle myself! :) I was holding her in the air and moving her up and down above my head... and all of a sudden she let out a BIG giggle! So, of course, I kept doing it trying to make her do it again. We got it recorded on video... so guess what I will be doing all day today :) haha no. I have other things to do too... but I am sure I will fit it in!

Friday night Dan gave Brynn a bath. He had given her one with me, but I wanted him to feel comfortable doing it by himself... so I was there to guide him :) but he did just fine. Saturday we went to a craft sale out at the fairgrounds. Saturday night, I was Dan's dd while he went to St. Paul for a bachelor party. Yesterday, Brynn and I went to Shannon's wedding shower. It was so nice!

Me and Shan at her shower

Brynn really loves her Baby Einstein Jumper. She will play in it for at least a half hour at a time. I love watching her in it because it just amazes me how much she is growing and changing! She reaches for toys, grabs them, spins them... she wasn't doing much of that a month ago! I can't believe she is 9 days from being 4 months old. Yikes. This also means she will need more shots :( I hate having to see her get shots.

Oh.. and I almost forgot! Brynn has been sleeping in her crib at night since Thursday! That is 4 nights, and the transistion has been just fine for her... and I have done pretty well, too. Still sleeping through the night! I also have been putting her down for naps in her crib during the day.

This week we don't have anything planned during the week which is nice. The weather is also supposed to be "normal", whatever that means, the rest of the week. All I know this weather has been pathetic. Next weekend we have a lot going on... my 10 year class reunion and my first Mother's Day with Brynnie! It was that weekend one year ago we found out we were pregnant! :o)