Overwhelming feeling....

.... of being in love. Seriously. I just had to post this morning because I am sitting on my couch, watching my DVRd Bethenny Ever After, and Brynn is sitting in her swing playing with her Mr. Elephant. Sometimes I just look at her and get this overwhelmed feeling... it is hard to explain. It seriously feels almost as though I love her more and more everyday, if that is even possible. I just look at her and smile. How can you not?

Last night, we got home from my parents house a little after 9. Brynn fell asleep in the car, and I put her in her crib for the night when we got home. (She slept til 7am this morning by the way!) Anyway... I am exhausted by that time at night. However, I just can't go to bed at night after she goes down. I always stay up for an hour and a half- two hours just to have some "me" time. Dan probably doesn't understand it... but all day long, I feel as though I am taking care of her, playing with her, or cleaning. Sometimes when she is napping, I get a little bit of time, but I am always waiting for her to wake up. So, even though I am so tired, I put off sleeping for a while just to whind down.

I had to get up and put her down in the middle of writing this entry. I feel like I am really getting to know her cues and know what she needs. FINALLY after almost 4 months :) Her naps are never that long though... but usually she naps, eats, plays. She is usually only awake about 1.5-2 hours, then needs to go down for a nap again.

I just went up to check on her, I had to pull her lovey away from her face- she buries her face into soft things to self soothe herself, which I am glad she can do. Anyway, as I walked out of her room, I just broke down. I thought to myself, this is what I have been waiting for. I have my healthy baby girl sleeping in her crib. I have met her needs, and she is sleeping. I truly had been waiting for this moment since Sept. of 2009.. when we found out we were pregnant with Elizabeth.

Well... funny how this blog ended in a direction I had no idea it would. I guess that is what happens when I have to stop writing to take care of Brynn about 3 times in the course of this entry :) I started writing about a half hour ago! Haha. So worth it though.

PS. I love Bethenny Frankel.