7 Months!!

Well, Brynnie is officially 7 months. She is so close to crawling... it has to happen in the next week. She is definitely mobile-- rolling and scooting to what she wants. I know it is just a matter of time.

Next week is the start of preseason for high school soccer. I can't believe it is here already! I am going to stop down at the field I think on Wednesday or Thursday during the scrimmages. I then may head over to school and get some stuff done in my classroom. I am actually getting really excited for the year to start. I do love teaching... and love the kids, so I am looking forward to that. I am not looking forward to my massive class sizes, but that is just the reality of education right now, unfortunatly. Of course I will miss Brynnie, but based on the first couple days of her being with Kevin and Kelsey, I know it will be great. They are so good with her.

I know anxiety is something I have been open about it posts before... I just know it is something I am going to battle with the rest of my life. I just wish it could be consistent! It is so up and down. I have an appt. with my doctor on Monday about my meds and have a feeling it would be a good idea to up the dosage because it has been pretty bad lately... and I am on a minumum dosage right now. I just have a feeling it might get worse once work starts. Yes, I am excited to be back, but that doesn't take away the stress of being away from Brynn. Plus, I am getting back in the routine of worrying about dumb little stuff, and that is usually a signal that it is getting worse. Believe it or not, I am not anxious/ worried about Brynn as much as I thought I would be. I think the biggest hurdle for me with her was just getting her here! Once I had her in my arms, that was all I needed. Obviously as she gets older, I know worries will come and go, but for right now, it is so nice just being able to enjoy her.

Last night we went to Brew at the Zoo with my friend Katie and Eric. It was SO fun. It was a beautiful night, lots of great beer, food, and music. Our friend Alex was in town working at it, and he was so awesome and was able to get us in with free tickets. He works for Capital Brewery out in Madison, WI. GREAT beer :o) We then went to Sweeneys after and met up with Sara, John, and Kelsey. We drank some more beer (and soda), had some wings, and had some good laughs. And, to top it off... guess how late I stayed out?? Until midnight! It was the latest I have been out since Brynn was born, and she was sleeping like a baby when I got to my mom and dads. I also texted my mom a lot less throughout the night, so it is becoming a little bit easier to go out and enjoy myself. Heck, my mom raised 4 kids so she is more of a pro at stuff than I am! :)

Today we are heading up to Dan's moms to visit, and to get Kolby some training. She is staying up there right now and we are getting her trained on the electric fence, and some behavior training. I hope it goes well and she has success. I miss her and hope we get out of this townhome so we can have her again and in our OWN backyard. We are really trying to figure out what exactly we want to do-- rent or try selling our house. We know we will take a loss on our house, that is just the reality if we sell. I just hope we get it figured out soon. We are outgrowing this house fast.

Let's see... tomorrow will probably be church and maybe going to my parents house. If it is nice we like to go over there to swim/ let the dogs play in the back yard/ eat/ just visit!

At night time, we play Jewels Lullaby CD for Brynn, and there is one song on it that I just LOVE. The lyrics just have so much meaning to me, so I am going to leave you with them.

The song is called "Forever and a Day"
The other day you asked me to
Tell you how much I love you.
Oh but words so often fail,
To describe the depth and scale,
and even though it may sound cliche,
I'll tell you now in my simple way.

My love is as true as the oceans are blue,
and I always feel this way.
Just listen to the beating that keeps repeating
My heart wants to say
Like Gala and Dali, it's you and me,
Forever and a day.