34 Weeks

Well to start off, Birth Class. That hit me a lot harder than I thought it would emotionally. We were fine.... I was fine... UNTIL we had to watch the labor and birth video. When the mother in the video delivered her baby and she was put on her chest, I lost it. My only experience with natural childbirth was delivering my baby and her not being alive. It was a very sad, depressing memory. Not a joyful one. I walked out of the classroom, burst into tears, and sat in the bathroom until I could pull myself together. I was not expecting that to happen. On top of that, everyone in the room is a first time parent... innocent... and I just kind of felt out of place. We headed to lunch at Cosetta's, and that was nice, and we had the afternoon to look forward to.

In the afternoon, we had the tour of the birth center. This was not a new place for us, since we delivered Elizabeth there, and my clinic is right there too. I was nervous about how I would feel since the last time we were there was when we delivered. Sure enough, we walk past the room she was born in, and I literally lost my breath. I could not catch it. I fought back tears so hard since we were in a group setting, and pulled myself together. It felt so surreal. Our tour finished looking at the nursery and seeing all the newborns... and that made me emotional just wanting so bad to have Brynn here and healthy. I can't wait!

Dan and I have one more class tomorrow... on Breastfeeding. I want him to come so he understands how much work it is going to entail, and how difficult it can be. I am glad he is willing to come with me for support.

Onto pregnancy! Holy indegestion. I went to chipotle last night, stuffed my face, and paid for it. I woke up at 3 am feeling like I had food sitting in my throat, heartburn, and felt miserable. I couldn't lay down. I ended up not falling back asleep until at least 4:30, needing to wake up at 5:30. When I woke up I was so hungry, and felt a little better, but it came back with a vengence. It bothered me ALL DAY. Right now I just have heartburn...hope that goes away.

I am also so sick of people asking "How much longer?" and me responding January and their response being "Whoa. You still have that long to go??" IT IS NOT THAT LONG! SIX WEEKS! I HAVE BEEN THROUGH 34! Thanks for letting me know though how huge I look, like I don't know that already. I know I vented about this in another post, but seriously people. Have some courtesy.

Other than that, Brynn has been kicking the crap out of me today... and it hurts! There isn't that much room and it feels like she is trying to kick and punch herself out. I can't WAIT to not be pregnant, and to have her here with us!