Fifteen Weeks

So I gave in and bought a doppler to hear the heartbeat at home... the problem is it really doesn't ease my nerves since I heard the heartbeat alI the time last time, assuming things were ok, later to find out otherwise. So, it is nice, but not enough!

I have to say, I am proud of how well I am handling this pregnancy and the anxiety and stress it is causing. I thought I would be a mess, but I am not as bad as I thought. Dan even says the same thing, and my therapist that I go to that I began seeing right after we lost Elizabeth is so happay with my progress from when I started seeing her in March. I was a MESS when I first went it. I was having panic attacks, not making it into work... I was struggling so much. I feel much more myself.... but obviously still dealing with anxiety over this pregnancy.

I haven't really had any cravings... but wanted stuffed green peppers all of a sudden! SO my mom makes amazing ones, so I went over there today and made a batch! So excited to bake them tomorrow.

How am I feeling.... physically better. Not throwing up everyday anymore... but haven't gained a pound yet, not that I am complaining. I am anxious/ excited for next Friday, and hoping for the best in terms of healthy baby, and finding out the gender on our ultrasound! I just can't wait to make it to teh 20 week mark, getting the news baby is healthy, and beginning a new journey that I didn't get to experience last time...