4th Time's a Charm?

Ok.  So I said I was going to be an open book.  I said as soon as I peed on a stick and got a positive I would blog the journey from day 1.  Funny how when these things actually happen... One changes their mind.  

You see, when I get pregnant, it doesn't seem real.  I don't believe it.  I can't believe it because if I do, it makes it real, and that is scary.  Then feelings are involved and I get attached.  Sharing the news of being pregnant after a loss... It's weird and uncomfortable and awkward.  I wish somehow people would just know... Yet I can't wait until I'm really far along because I'm self conscious about my body and people looking at me and thinking "she's getting fat."

So you're wondering... What is she getting at?  Is she pregnant?  Yes.  I am. Cautiously but starting to believe.  I have known I am pregnant for about 6 weeks... And today I am 10 weeks pregnant.  I have seen our baby already 3 times via ultrasound, with its heart beating 175 bpm.  My clinic is fantastic and so supportive of me and my crazy nerves and anxiety.  It helps so much.

Baby Babich is due Novemeber 5--- right after soccer season :) it ended up being good timing.  Now that the cat is out of the bag... I'll be on here more blogging.

How have I felt weeks 4-10?  Sick.  Nauseous.  I feel even sicker this time then I did with Brynn.  I am convinced already it's another girl :)

So... Now you all can officially begin this journey with me.  I know it won't be easy all the time... and my craziness will make an appearance now and then.  But with the support of my awesome family, amazing friends, and such and understanding and supportive ob clinic... I know we can do this!

This is a pic of my latest ultrasound!