My due date is in less that a week. Friends from facebook are having babies that were due at the same time as me. I log in and see postings and pictures, and can't help but hope that we have that soon. I have to think positive, and I do... but with that is just a girl that is so scared. Not many people understand, they keep telling me to stay positive, don't think like that, but when your whole world comes crashing down in an instant, not having any idea anything is wrong, you know it is possible, and impossible to not think about that. Not quite sure what this week will be like... I am sure difficult, but hopeful as well.8 days left of school! Then dan and I will make our way to San Diego!!! I wish we had more time there, but it will be fun nonetheless... Everyone always asks me "What is your plan this summer?" How am I suppose to answer that? I was planning on caring for a baby, and now since that fell through I am going to sit and do nothing? Why is it that teachers get asked that question, like if we aren't working,we are lazy or something. No, I am not coaching this summer and definitly ok with that. No, I am not playing soccer for the first time since I was 5, and ok with that too. I will be spending some time on me, and I am more than ok with that! I have some grad school stuff I hope to attempt and finish... but other that that not much planned, and I am so excited for that! This is the first summer in so long I haven't had a million things going on.
Today Dan and I are heading out to White Bear Lake for the day. Hopefully the beautiful weather lasts all day! Happy Memorial Day!
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