Less than a week

Here is myh ticker. This is how far I should be today. I noramlly delete this everytime I log in... My due date is in less that a week. Friends from facebook are having babies that were due at the same time as me. I log in and see postings and pictures, and can't help but hope that we have that soon. I have to think positive, and I do... but with that is just a girl that is so scared. Not many people understand, they keep telling me to stay positive, don't think like that, but when your whole world comes crashing down in an instant, not having any idea anything is wrong, you know it is possible, and impossible to not think about that. Not quite sure what this week will be like... I am sure difficult, but hopeful as well.

8 days left of school! Then dan and I will make our way to San Diego!!! I wish we had more time there, but it will be fun nonetheless... Everyone always asks me "What is your plan this summer?" How am I suppose to answer that? I was planning on caring for a baby, and now since that fell through I am going to sit and do nothing? Why is it that teachers get asked that question, like if we aren't working,we are lazy or something. No, I am not coaching this summer and definitly ok with that. No, I am not playing soccer for the first time since I was 5, and ok with that too. I will be spending some time on me, and I am more than ok with that! I have some grad school stuff I hope to attempt and finish... but other that that not much planned, and I am so excited for that! This is the first summer in so long I haven't had a million things going on.

Today Dan and I are heading out to White Bear Lake for the day. Hopefully the beautiful weather lasts all day! Happy Memorial Day!

Monday, Monday

Mother's Day. It was not as tough as I had imagined it to be. Of course I get upset thinking about how close we would be to having our baby, but it was overall a good day. Dan and I went to the Twins game with Suzie, Steve, and his boys. Chris was in town and came too so that was good to see him. After the game, Shannon and Nick came over and hung out for a while. That was great. It was so nice to hang out with my sis for a while... and Nick made spinach artichoke dip. It was so good. We layed on the couch and watched The Blind Side.

Tonight I am meeting Garon for dinner at the Green Mill. I am so excited to eat (as I sit here and try not to eat because I am SO HUNGRY!) as well as see her. Dan doesn't have class tonight since it is finals week so he will be home right after work. Yay!

This weekend, Dan will be at the cabin for opener and I will be up at Wolf Ridge with a group of kids from school. I am so excited, since I had always wanted to go as a student and never did. I am finally going! Keeping my fingers crossed for good weather.

Well, nothing too sappy or juicy today. I am getting kind of bored with this season of DWTS. You know the final 2 are going to be Nicole and Evan, and the train wrecks are gone, so now it is kind of boring. I am excited for Castle tonight!!! Great show. Thats it for now. Hope everyone has a good week.

Much Better Weekend.

That's more like it. I look back at my last few posts, and realize how rough the last couple of weeks have been for me. I know it is not unusual, it is very normal to take a few step forward, than back, than forward again. This weekend, was a lot more "noraml". Did I think about everything that has happened and what I wish it would be?? Absoultly. I just didn't dwell on it this weekend.

My weekend started with dinner with Dan on Friday night at Molly Cools. It is a Seafood restaurant, and so good. It made me actually think that I may like to apply as a server there for the summer. I had Blackened Mahi Mahi with pineapple salsa... did not evern compare to the dish at Bubba Gumps. Dan has a blackened catfish sandwhich that was as big as his head... which he enjoyed as well. I would have to say the best part of the meal was our appetizer... it was a spinach crab dip with little pieces of toasted bread to eat it on. It was delicious! We then came home and I watched It's Complicated. Such a good movie. It has Meyrl Streep, Alec Baldwin, and Steve Martin (whom I LOVE). Super cute. Saturday... we woke up and I went and got a pedicure with Sara and we went out for Thai. Again, well needed to have some quality girl time. Today, Dan and I went out for brekafast, and then took Kolby and Maia out for a walk at Lebanon Hills. They actually went swimming for the first time for the season! It is Kolby's second birthday today so we wanted to give her a treat :)

As for the evening... I am sure we will watch Celebrity Apprentice and Dan has a date with his homework. I am getting really excited for our trip to San Diego. We leave on June 11 and come back June 16. This is a picture of our hotel. We are right downtown so we are near so much! We can't wait.

I am hoping for a good week this week. Hope you all have a good one!