Full Circle

Brynn's birthday is January 11, 2011.  She was born exactly one year, to the date, of my ultrasound with Elizabeth discovering she was not going to live.  In one full year, I experienced the most devastating day of my life, and the happiest day of my life.

One year ago today, October 16, 2013, I thought I was miscarrying... Sad, but glad that's all it was.  My world was flipped upside down when I received a phone call from a nurse telling me they are pretty sure I'm having an ectopic pregnancy... I needed to come in immediately.  I no longer was just miscarrying and my body could deal with this loss on its own... I was at St. John's hospital, heading to the cancer treatment facility, to terminate my ectopic pregnancy.  Here I am, once again, full circle, one year later, awaiting the arrival of my second baby.  The timing of these experiences is just so crazy to me.  I am so thankful I met my Dr. while experiencing my ectopic as well... She is amazing.

I have not had an easy road, and people who don't know what I've experienced make comments all.the.time when I tell them I am done after this.  They say "you'll need to try for a boy!"  No.  I hopefully will have two beautiful, healthy, baby girls in my arms tomorrow, and that's sounds perfect.

I know there are people who've experienced a lot worse than I have, as well as others that can't imagine experiencing what we've been through-- that's where I was 5 years ago.  I am the mother I am to Brynn and to our no-name daughter :) because of my experience and time with Elizabeth. ❤️

I can't wait to update you all on the birth of our baby girl!

36 Weeks

I said I would be better... There were many times I thought about posting/ updating... And I really should have... But just have a hard time thinking anyone cares about me and my boring life :)

I'm 36 weeks 1 day pregnant, and ready to be DONE.  I have one week... This little girl will be entering the work next Friday-- hopefully with a name!  I'm excited and nervous.  Nervous for recovery-- having a c-section... And nervous to have 2 kids to take care of, working full time, keeping house clean, daily chores, spending time with my family.... Makes me tired thinking about it!  Although I've gotten so used to feeling tired and crummy pregnant- I have to remind myself I won't be pregnant anymore!  EVER again!

It is funny how every pregnancy is different.  I haven't gained as much weight this time around, but I was diagnosed with GD which really suprised me.  It was whacky at first, but now it's almost as if I don't have it anymore... Weird I know but my numbers are really low and good.  Recently I have been diagnosed with pregnancy induced hypertension (PIH) which came on later than it did with Brynn... And not as bad.  Funny how different doctors treat it though!  This dr-- whom I LOVE-- is way more cautious with PIH than my Dr with Brynn.  She sent me to the hospital for monitoring on Monday because I went in not feeling right-- BP 160/82 and blurry vision.  My readings over night ranged from 120/77 to 140/82 so was released!  I was really glad.

Now I sit at home- not able to work- leaving abruptly- and in the most important part of our season-- SECTIONS!  I'm trying to distance myself because my passion = probably rising BP but it's hard.  Lauby and Hootie have been AMAZING and helping a ton.

In the meantime... Trying to get little things taken care of around the house.  We have a cleaning crew coming in a week from today to deep clean the house which will be AMAZING!!  Can't wait.  That's my update.