Update

Hi all. I have no idea if anyone checks to see if I update this... but I felt the urge to lately. I am happy to say I have been having more good days than bad ones. Something unexpectedly can make me switch from being happy to really upset... just ask Dan, but I have made it to work everyday for the last 2 weeks, which is a big improvement. The best way I can explain how I feel is that I have an empty feeling. A feeling I can't seem to fill to make go away... and I am assuming that may be there forever.

I have a really hard time seeing all the updates of people and their pregnancies on facebook. I understand their excitement, but it is always a reminder of what I don't have. I know that feeling will get less and less. It has already. But it is still hard. I think about how we should be working on the nursery, and how showers would be right around the corner. Also how far I would be (27 weeks Monday-- beginning my 3rd trimester already). Sometimes when I end up thinking of all of those things, it gets overwhelming.

Dan and I are taking a trip to Duluth this weekend... to get away, as well as for our anniversary. It will be 2 years already on the 17th! We also just booked a trip to San Diego for June. We will leave june 11th (my last day at work) and come back the 15th. Perfect timing since that should have been when elizabeth would have been born. I am so looking forward to that time away, just Dan and I. We really haven't had a trip like that. Even our honeymoon had all of our family there, so it should be fun.

I am getting my hair done today! So excited! It will be nice to get a nice fresh look to get ready for spring. I will try to update more often. Hope everyone is doing well.